Well, Nee-chan has taught me two things about myself.

1. I hate the idea of pain/discomfort. I worry about people when they aren't feeling well. I can sometimes be more worried than the person who is injured/sick/etc. XD

2. When I fall for someone, I fall hard. And it takes me a while to get over it. I'm extremely loyal (apparently XD). I feel like a puppy. XDDDD

Anyway, yeah. It's interesting what people notice about you that you don't see yourself.

God, I kinda hate myself. Why do I feel this way? T_T
So jealous...I guess I really do want what they have.

もう、マジ気が動転するよ。いっつも「あの人」のことを話してから、マジ悔しい。あたしはそういう人じゃないが分かったのよ！でも、頑張ってるよ。あなたの大事な人になるって...何度も同じことを聞いて、本当にむかつく。
あなたの心で他のスペースがないよね？あたしはただ「知り合い」よね？まあ、それはいいけど...「友達」か「仲良し」になりたい。
まあ...いいや。あたしはそういうタイプだね。大事なひとに何か欲しい物をぜったいあげる。後...あたしの態度が悪いよね。こんなに羨ましくなった...

ところで、これは恋愛のことじゃないのよ～ <3

I saw Rui-kun for the first time today in a while. We just chatted, about how we both hated the APUSH exam from today.
Gah, just seeing him made me a little doki-doki. *blushes* I guess it'll always feel that way. But I had a little daydream about him, that we were still friends as adults and that I got an invitation to his wedding. o_O We got together, just the two of us and talked about our past and I congratulated him for finding such a beautiful girl who was so good to him, etc. Then...I suddenly comfessed that I liked him for a long time as a kid...and he actually got mad at me for not telling him. O_O He kissed me...but I made him stop. Somehow his wife found out...but I took the blame and said that I wouldn't come to the wedding...and I'd never try to contact him...just so his marriage would work out.
So bizarre. XDD;;;

God, even my best isn't enough.

...to me!!! XDDD

17歳になりました。\(^_^)/

I've realized how fun they are so I went searching. XD

A. SIX NAMES YOU GO BY:

1) Kathryn
2) Katie
3) b3rry
4) strawb3rrykream
5) Ichigo-chan
6) kream

B. THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

1) Big red T-shirt
2) PE shorts from middle school
3) Panties? XDD

C. THREE THINGS YOU WANT VERY BADLY AT THE MOMENT

1) My homework to do itself
2) Inspiration and time to finish my fics
3) Junior year to be over!!!

D. THREE PEOPLE WHOM YOU HOPE WILL DO THE MEME:

1) Idk
2) Anyone
3) People who like to do memes

E. THREE THINGS YOU DID LAST NIGHT:

1) RP
2) Some Japanese hw
3) Ate some kitkats

F. THREE PEOPLE YOU LAST TALKED TO ON THE PHONE:

1) Mom
2) College friend
3) Grandma XD

G. THREE THINGS YOU ARE GOING TO DO TOMORROW:

1) Go to school
2) Complain about school
3) Do homework *sighs*

H. THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:

1) Milk tea
2) Orange juice
3) Soymilk

I. THREE THINGS THAT MADE YOU SMILE TODAY:

1) Talking to Kiichan
2) RPing
3) Thinking about getting presents XDD

Hello, LJ and LJ friends~

Gah, things have been weird since my last post. MANY things I really can't write about. People not quite involved but that are too close for comfort read this. XD

I'm lonely. Not because of my last post, but just other stuff. *sighs* lol

God, I'm so confused now. I can't speak in detail about my problem, but I really don't know what to do.

How do you end something with someone? Whether it be a relationship, or just a friendship? How do you tell someone that you can't keep going with the way things are?

*sighs* I never thought I'd have this kind of issue. I get along well enough with most people. XD

Man, why is LJ being a bitch to me right now? lol it seriously took me like 10 minutes to log in.

Anyway, I was thinking recently wondering why people are all putting their whole lives out on the internet for everyone to see...and then I remember just a fraction of a second later that I have this blog. XD And that I'm pretty open when talking to people online.

I've said revealing things, things that I don't dare tell people in real life. For fear of judgement, abandonment, and assorted other -ment words.

I realized that it's MUCH easier to let go online and tell things that you wouldn't normally tell people. In a way, it's dangerous. I know that they are people out there who take advantage of the open-ness. But at the same time, it's almost liberating. It's nice to be able to let out thoughts that are so often shoved into a drawer and locked away in one's mind.

Yeah, I know this post was kinda pointless. XD But I keep forgetting to post here, and when I do, I have nothing to say.